Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh

Hidup saya ini merupakan kisah yang terakam detik-detik sebuah memori sunyi, di dalamnya saya susuri dengan menanti harapan sehingga berlalu segala impian...

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Story of Lonely Journey


Civilian Education Center,

Cairo, Egypt.

It has been 3 days in Cairo. I do nothing in this room but sleeping, watching tv in Arabic, laughing when they are laughing, sad when they are sad even i do not understand a single word!! (menyong duduk sorang-sorang dalam bilik hotel ni) Listening Be With You by Akon, my husband’s favorite song and that makes me want to cry. Actually I’ve cried in the flight when transit to Bahrain before Cairo, crying until I forgot to buy some sevenier (this is my identity to spell souvenir) when I was there espesely fridge magnets! Wuwu how can I forgot something that is my interest!! Alaa.. ruginya!!

The time now is 11.10 am. The rajin mood surrounding my atmosphere, so I study a bit for presentation tomorrow. Wish I bring PS2, i could play Final Fantasy 8 that I never finish due to the broken CD. Or maybe my PSP 2000 if my brother not gave it to some dealer for download some games and crush it!! Damn it.. Grrrr…

so what I do is typing some trash on my laptop wishing that I have internet to chat with my husband. What is he doing rite now. i wonder.. maybe he’s reading comic books. Wish I read the comics beside him. Hmmm (auuww so romantic! hikhik=p)

Oo ya.. all my friends in this center about 14 peoples , three quarter of them working for Foreign Ministry (they are diplomats) and the rest is from Higher Education. They are 2 Iraqi, 2 Egyptian, 2 Afghanis, 2 Indonesia, 1 Sudanese, 1 Somali, 1 Pakistani, 1 Palestinian, 1 Turkmenistan (he withdrew in the middle of the course) and 1 Malaysian (that’s me, and if my husband were here we have 2 Malaysian). Only 3 of us are females.

They all knew that I've married just a week before I flew to Cairo and they all feel sympathy for both of us. Their sympathies not makes me feel better!! Worsen my feeling, adalah… wuwu

What can I do.. this is my choice and this is not a very good choice. I should think further before make any crucial decision. Wish I could turn back time, but I cant, everybody knows that.

The conclusion for the story: Abang… I miss you!! Plop plop!!

This luahan perasaan was written 2 months ago...

Now the current mood is.. nak balek mesia!! waa tak sabarnya...

yip.. yip!!

ps: to naziah dearie, akak dah update blog as requested,

btw comel kan akak tengah loncat2 kat atas salji tu tengah2 malam!! hik hik=p

Monday, November 23, 2009

waaa pening!!!

ngeee.... kepala saya berat.. otak saya pusing.. macam-macam benda dalam kepala yang memang sedia kecik ni..

tadi baca artikel.. climate change, urbanisation, globalisation, land use planning, sustainable society, goverment policies, economic growth, huhu sakit otak saya...

waaa info banyak sangat pon pening, takde banyak data pon pening!! waaaaa...

ngeeee * mata pusing* ngeegiuu

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Penghibur duka...

Al Mu'allim

We once had a Teacher
The Teacher of teachers,
He changed the world for the better
And made us better creatures,

Oh Allah we’ve shamed ourselves
We’ve strayed from Al-Mu'allim,
Surely we’ve wronged ourselves
What will we say in front him?
Oh Mu'allim...

He was Muhammad salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam,
Muhammad, mercy upon Mankind,

He was Muhammad salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam,
Muhammad, mercy upon Mankind,
Teacher of all Mankind.

Abal Qasim [one of the names of the Prophet]
Ya Habibi ya Muhammad
(My beloved O Muhammad)

Ya Shafi'i ya Muhammad
(My intercessor O Muhammad)

Khayru khalqillahi Muhammad
(The best of Allah’s creation is Muhammad)

Ya Mustafa ya Imamal Mursalina
(O Chosen One, O Imam of the Messengers)

Ya Mustafa ya Shafi'al 'Alamina
(O Chosen One, O intercessor of the worlds)

He prayed while others slept
While others ate he’d fast,
While they would laugh he wept
Until he breathed his last,

His only wish was for us to be
Among the ones who prosper,
Ya Mu'allim peace be upon you,
Truly you are our Teacher,
Oh Mu'allim..

Ya Habibi ya Muhammad
(My beloved O Muhammad)

Ya Shafi'i ya Muhammad
(My intercessor O Muhammad)

Ya Rasuli ya Muhammad
(O My Messenger O Muhammad)

Ya Bashiri ya Muhammad
(O bearer of good news O Muhammad)

Ya Nadhiri ya Muhammad
(O warner O Muhammad)

'Ishqu Qalbi ya Muhammad
(The love of my heart O Muhammad)

Nuru 'Ayni ya Muhammad
(Light of my eye O Muhammad)

He taught us to be just and kind
And to feed the poor and hungry,
Help the wayfarer and the orphan child
And to not be cruel and miserly,

His speech was soft and gentle,
Like a mother stroking her child,
His mercy and compassion,
Were most radiant when he smiled

by: Sami Yusuf

Hati saya sedih... sebab saya buat salah besar.. Huh entahla..

Bila dengar nama Muhammad(SAW), terasa Baginda seakan ada di sisi memujuk... agar tidak bersedih lagi. (ermm ok saya tak sedih..)

Saya nak menghadap Allah jap.. nak tenangkan hati sebab Allah je dapat menghepikan saya balik...

bai bai (waving) -_- (muka straight)